January 2021 – A New Journey

January 2021 – A New Journey

2020 has been an insane year for all of us. It has thrown some real challenges and devastation upon us while testing us all to our limits. A lot of people’s mental health have been affected more so than ever, people have lost their jobs, their homes, their sense of security and safety.

The whole world went into a worldwide scare as we faced a worldwide pandemic due to an out break of coronavirus, and with some of leaders failing to guide us through such a stressful and unusual event it has made getting through this pandemic a lot harder and a lot more frightening as some countries have been left feeling as though they are fending for themselves due to the lack of guidance and control over the situation. Some of us have lost family members, friends and other loved ones from the hit of COVID-19

We have all been tested to our limits in our owns ways and have had to face many challenges that I’m sure a lot of us could have done without. Not only has this pandemic affected us all on a personal level but it has also affected us all on a business level. With countries going into lockdown in the hopes of containing and stopping the spread of the virus a lot of people had to leave their jobs, a lot of people got fired from their jobs as a lot of businesses failed to meet their money target for this year. Businesses were forced to close their doors temporarily in the hopes of containing the virus, thinking…well more like hoping, that they would only need to do that for a couple of weeks. However for some unfortunate and struggling businesses, they have been forced to close their doors forever putting them and their employees out of work.

The NHS and Key-Workers have been pushed more than ever also. With NHS workers/nurses/doctors risking their lives to help save our loved ones lives there have been a lot of show of support of them (but yet still not enough) as we thank them for working tirelessly to keep our loved ones alive and healthy.

People who never even considered dying their hair have gone as far as to self-bleach and dye their own with the trending hashtag (At the time) #Lockdownhair. I myself have been hit with a new hairstyle, a much shorter one I never thought I’d be brave enough to try out, despite my reservations and fears about short hair I have been finding a new hidden confidence in myself that never would have.

businesses, workers and just about everyone around the world started relying on the internet, on social media, group chats, and home deliveries to get them through this confusing COVID-19 pandemic.

As we had to learn to distance ourselves physically from those we love, we reached out to the internet and social media in the hopes of trying to replace that lost and lonely feeling. Divorces have gone up, relationships (friendships, platonic, Family relationships, romantic) have been tried and tested, and a lot of people unfortunately got to experience a little of what a lot of us who have suffered from mental health most of our lives are coping. Mental Health has become more talked about more now than ever, with thousands having their sense of safety and socialism taken from them and their world turned around.

To put it simply, 2020 has been one hell of a year, a year that has changed the world.

Like everyone else I and my family (close and distant) have not been without our own struggles, but as always they have shown a strength that I can only hope to/have when facing my own challenges.

2020 became such a unsuspected, challenging, frightening and unknown year. And despite that I am honestly looking forward to starting 2021 journey. The lows and the highs. After this year, if I have taken anything from it, it’s not to underestimate yourself and that there isn’t a thing you can’t get through as long as you have the right people trying to support and help you. It’s also not to take health for granted and I’m more determined than I was back when I started my yoga journey in 2019 while starting my recovery journey with my eating disorder to keep my focus on my health.

With that being said, This year brought me into a whole new journey of healing, one I feel will bring its own adventures as it follows me into the New Year of 2021.

I have no clue what this year holds for me or for you! But I have a feeling this year is going to be the year of self-discovery for everyone.

despite the load of shit-storms we’ve had thrown our way this year, that isn’t to say that 2020 didn’t come with its good moments.

Here in Liverpool, we never got a our snowy christmas day. However, we were graced in the wee little hours of the morning with a small blanket of snow. It wasn’t enough to get some “Winter Wonderland” though I did try (they didn’t turn out any good) I did end up accidently capturing a little blurry snowflake on my camera!

The sky has been incredible this year! And I’ve found myself looking to the sky more this year than my entire life. Just check out some of the incredible “shows” our beautiful sky has put on for us this year: –

  • Series of supermoons.
  • Moon passes in front of Mars.
  • Meteor shower drought comes to an end.
  • Lunar eclipse on the Fourth of July.
  • Jupiter, Saturn to take the spotlight in the summer sky.
  • Perseid meteor shower.
  • Blue moon to glow in Halloween sky.
  • Moonless sky in store for peak of the Geminids
  • Total solar eclipse to darken sky over South America
  • Super conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn

I was not only lucky enough to witness most of these, I was lucky enough to capture all the supermoons on my camera!

I, myself, have overcome personal challenges, faced some frightening situations and through it all I have found a deeper strength in myself. I have found that I can still somehow function through a LOT of stress and a LOT of worrying.

I’ve been able to keep my anxiety down, my eating and weight is still all over the place but I’m happy to say that I’ve at least managed not to lose anymore. I’ve still managed my solo or couple walks in the wooded areas away from other people and I’ve spends a lot of this year starting a few new online courses and taking pictures, making whatever memories I could.

I strayed away from my blog despite my efforts, I found myself with little interest in writing this year, so much so that I still have a few new empty notebooks laying around! Usually they are half way filled with words by the end of a year however I don’t feel any loss towards my lack of enthusiasm for writing this year. I’ve seen it as a pausing point, a point in my life where I needed to take a bigger step away from social media and away from my blog and focus on my present life and the world moving around me not around the internet.

2020 has brought with it an inner peace within myself that has changed so much the way I think and look at situations and for that, pushing aside the bad of the year, I am grateful for the challenges and I can’t say that I took nothing away from 2020 because I’ve taken more from that year than I have any other.

I’m more focused on myself, on my emotions, my passions, my body, my hunger, my abilities and health thanks to 2020, my eyes are open to more positive things and I’m able to recognise a bad situation and detach myself from it rather than invest my emotions into it, just as I am now able to recognise a positive moment and keep it at the forefront of my mind ready to get through another difficult situation.

I understand just how scary, devastating and unusual this year has been. I’m sure its made it difficult for a lot of people to push past all the bad, to focus on the little bits of good that has come from this year.

But I want you all to try, try to think of one or two good things that happened this year and hold on to them, let those good moments be your guide through the bad moments. And remember that our mental state and the well beings of ourselves and loved ones are what truly matters. Count your small blessings, enjoy and soak yourself in the little moments and don’t take for granted the things others do for us to keep us going, don’t take for granted those in your life and more than anything never let the dark moments become every moment. There is light in every dark situation, no matter how tiny it maybe.

I don’t know what struggles you face in your life but I believe in you! If we can make it through a year like 2020, we can make it through anything.

I hope you all had a magical christmas and a lovely new year.

And with that I’ll wish you all lovely 2021. Bye, bye 2020. I’m ready to start and get through 2021 adventures!

Author: littleTinkablee

Hi!šŸ¤— I'm Tinka, the author to this crazy messy blog! I have passions for many things in life including helping others when I can, writing, taking photo's, animals, the outdoors and so much more! Unfortunately, I have suffered from severe anxiety for over 6 years as well as other mental health illnesses which can really hinder and obscure my path to a better future. But after years of being locked away, I'm ready to fight back, I'm ready to do all it takes to break out of this cycle that my mental illnesses have help cause. I'm ready to break away from all my unhealthy habits and away from all the mental blocks I have. For me, the start of breaking out of my bad cycle was to start this Blog in 2019 in the hopes of taking myself out of my comfort zone and getting myself out into the world more (even if it is via the internet). I document my ups and downs with my mental illnesses, as well as some of my daily going on and lifestyle tips. I like to believe there is a little something of everything to read on my blog and I do try to cater to a wide range audience so as not to limit my blog. I want to thank you all for the support you have and continue to show me and my blog! And as always I hope that you can take something good way from reading my blog

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