January 2021 – A New Journey

January 2021 – A New Journey

2020 has been an insane year for all of us. It has thrown some real challenges and devastation upon us while testing us all to our limits. A lot of people’s mental health have been affected more so than ever, people have lost their jobs, their homes, their sense of security and safety.

The whole world went into a worldwide scare as we faced a worldwide pandemic due to an out break of coronavirus, and with some of leaders failing to guide us through such a stressful and unusual event it has made getting through this pandemic a lot harder and a lot more frightening as some countries have been left feeling as though they are fending for themselves due to the lack of guidance and control over the situation. Some of us have lost family members, friends and other loved ones from the hit of COVID-19

We have all been tested to our limits in our owns ways and have had to face many challenges that I’m sure a lot of us could have done without. Not only has this pandemic affected us all on a personal level but it has also affected us all on a business level. With countries going into lockdown in the hopes of containing and stopping the spread of the virus a lot of people had to leave their jobs, a lot of people got fired from their jobs as a lot of businesses failed to meet their money target for this year. Businesses were forced to close their doors temporarily in the hopes of containing the virus, thinking…well more like hoping, that they would only need to do that for a couple of weeks. However for some unfortunate and struggling businesses, they have been forced to close their doors forever putting them and their employees out of work.

The NHS and Key-Workers have been pushed more than ever also. With NHS workers/nurses/doctors risking their lives to help save our loved ones lives there have been a lot of show of support of them (but yet still not enough) as we thank them for working tirelessly to keep our loved ones alive and healthy.

People who never even considered dying their hair have gone as far as to self-bleach and dye their own with the trending hashtag (At the time) #Lockdownhair. I myself have been hit with a new hairstyle, a much shorter one I never thought I’d be brave enough to try out, despite my reservations and fears about short hair I have been finding a new hidden confidence in myself that never would have.

businesses, workers and just about everyone around the world started relying on the internet, on social media, group chats, and home deliveries to get them through this confusing COVID-19 pandemic.

As we had to learn to distance ourselves physically from those we love, we reached out to the internet and social media in the hopes of trying to replace that lost and lonely feeling. Divorces have gone up, relationships (friendships, platonic, Family relationships, romantic) have been tried and tested, and a lot of people unfortunately got to experience a little of what a lot of us who have suffered from mental health most of our lives are coping. Mental Health has become more talked about more now than ever, with thousands having their sense of safety and socialism taken from them and their world turned around.

To put it simply, 2020 has been one hell of a year, a year that has changed the world.

Like everyone else I and my family (close and distant) have not been without our own struggles, but as always they have shown a strength that I can only hope to/have when facing my own challenges.

2020 became such a unsuspected, challenging, frightening and unknown year. And despite that I am honestly looking forward to starting 2021 journey. The lows and the highs. After this year, if I have taken anything from it, it’s not to underestimate yourself and that there isn’t a thing you can’t get through as long as you have the right people trying to support and help you. It’s also not to take health for granted and I’m more determined than I was back when I started my yoga journey in 2019 while starting my recovery journey with my eating disorder to keep my focus on my health.

With that being said, This year brought me into a whole new journey of healing, one I feel will bring its own adventures as it follows me into the New Year of 2021.

I have no clue what this year holds for me or for you! But I have a feeling this year is going to be the year of self-discovery for everyone.

despite the load of shit-storms we’ve had thrown our way this year, that isn’t to say that 2020 didn’t come with its good moments.

Here in Liverpool, we never got a our snowy christmas day. However, we were graced in the wee little hours of the morning with a small blanket of snow. It wasn’t enough to get some “Winter Wonderland” though I did try (they didn’t turn out any good) I did end up accidently capturing a little blurry snowflake on my camera!

The sky has been incredible this year! And I’ve found myself looking to the sky more this year than my entire life. Just check out some of the incredible “shows” our beautiful sky has put on for us this year: –

  • Series of supermoons.
  • Moon passes in front of Mars.
  • Meteor shower drought comes to an end.
  • Lunar eclipse on the Fourth of July.
  • Jupiter, Saturn to take the spotlight in the summer sky.
  • Perseid meteor shower.
  • Blue moon to glow in Halloween sky.
  • Moonless sky in store for peak of the Geminids
  • Total solar eclipse to darken sky over South America
  • Super conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn

I was not only lucky enough to witness most of these, I was lucky enough to capture all the supermoons on my camera!

I, myself, have overcome personal challenges, faced some frightening situations and through it all I have found a deeper strength in myself. I have found that I can still somehow function through a LOT of stress and a LOT of worrying.

I’ve been able to keep my anxiety down, my eating and weight is still all over the place but I’m happy to say that I’ve at least managed not to lose anymore. I’ve still managed my solo or couple walks in the wooded areas away from other people and I’ve spends a lot of this year starting a few new online courses and taking pictures, making whatever memories I could.

I strayed away from my blog despite my efforts, I found myself with little interest in writing this year, so much so that I still have a few new empty notebooks laying around! Usually they are half way filled with words by the end of a year however I don’t feel any loss towards my lack of enthusiasm for writing this year. I’ve seen it as a pausing point, a point in my life where I needed to take a bigger step away from social media and away from my blog and focus on my present life and the world moving around me not around the internet.

2020 has brought with it an inner peace within myself that has changed so much the way I think and look at situations and for that, pushing aside the bad of the year, I am grateful for the challenges and I can’t say that I took nothing away from 2020 because I’ve taken more from that year than I have any other.

I’m more focused on myself, on my emotions, my passions, my body, my hunger, my abilities and health thanks to 2020, my eyes are open to more positive things and I’m able to recognise a bad situation and detach myself from it rather than invest my emotions into it, just as I am now able to recognise a positive moment and keep it at the forefront of my mind ready to get through another difficult situation.

I understand just how scary, devastating and unusual this year has been. I’m sure its made it difficult for a lot of people to push past all the bad, to focus on the little bits of good that has come from this year.

But I want you all to try, try to think of one or two good things that happened this year and hold on to them, let those good moments be your guide through the bad moments. And remember that our mental state and the well beings of ourselves and loved ones are what truly matters. Count your small blessings, enjoy and soak yourself in the little moments and don’t take for granted the things others do for us to keep us going, don’t take for granted those in your life and more than anything never let the dark moments become every moment. There is light in every dark situation, no matter how tiny it maybe.

I don’t know what struggles you face in your life but I believe in you! If we can make it through a year like 2020, we can make it through anything.

I hope you all had a magical christmas and a lovely new year.

And with that I’ll wish you all lovely 2021. Bye, bye 2020. I’m ready to start and get through 2021 adventures!

Muddy Adventures

This year already feels like I’ve taken 6 steps back and I’m not quite sure how I’m going to shake myself from this…self-pity, I guess you could call it.

As a way to help myself, a way to distract myself from all the negative and bad that keeps circling around me I thought it would be a great idea to take my siblings out and let them try out my new camera and phone camera.

My siblings are no longer little children, they are now teenager! You never really notice the time going, you never really take notice of all the little changes that occurred as they grow but I have found that some of the activities I used to do with them…are no longer something they deem to be enjoyable now.

With that in mind, I thought it would be fun to share my love of taking pictures, with them. Using my newest phone camera and my new camera I thought it would be fun to let them take the pictures.

I thought it would be fascinating to be able to view the things that take their notice, I’ve always been curious as to how others see things differently from what I do. What grabs other’s attention? Using these camera’s was a great way to view our walk through their eyes.

Here are a few pictures my younger brother took using my phone camera:

Here are a few pictures my sister took using my Canon Camera

Here are a few picture my brother took using the Canon Camera

Here are a few pictures my sister took while using the phone camera:

Over all, despite the cold, the icy wind and falling in the mud a few times, we all really enjoyed the time together and the picture taking. I can’t wait to take them out when the spring time hits, we’ll all be taking endless photo’s of flowers and bee’s!

World Suicide Prevention Day 2019

Today marks ‘World Suicide Prevention Day.’

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World Suicide Prevention Day

A day where everyone across the world comes together in the hopes of preventing any more suicides from occurring/ helping those who are currently tormented by suicidal thoughts/behaviour.

There are many things as a group or even as individuals that you can do in support of ‘Suicide Prevention Day,’ Such as;

  • You can open up about your own story of surviving suicide
  • You can talk openly about your suicidal thoughts
  • You can open up about your attempts of suicide
  • You can share a family member’s story (with permission of course)
  • Or you can share a story of someone close to you who lost their life to this terrible thing
  • You can host a little get together where you open up, talk and learn more about suicide and ways to stop it in others/prevent it.

This year I have decided to take part in, ‘World Suicide Prevention Day’ (WAPD) by joining others across the world in lighting a candle next to my window at 8pm TONIGHT. In honour of those fighting, suffering and in memory of those we have already lost to suicide.

The IASP is preparing “World Suicide Prevention Day Light a Candle Near a Window at 8 PM” e-cards or postcards in various languages so supporters can send these reminders to friends, colleagues and loved ones. Also, these e-cards or postcards can be used by bloggers, writers and others so that they can share information about suicide, suicide prevention and World Suicide Prevention Day. Click here to download e-cards to send to loved ones

WORLD PREVENTION DAY SITE

You can find out more and get involved more by checking out their website ‘World Prevention Day.’

I would ask that all my viewers to join me in lighting a candle at 8pm tonight in support of suicide survivors, in support and acknowledgement of those with suicidal thoughts and in memory of those who have already lost their life to suicide.

And when you light your candle I would love for you to share a picture of it with me on social media! (I’ll be sharing some of them).

You can share you pictures with me here:

Instagram - @LittleTinkablee

Twitter - @Tinkableeblog

Facebook Page - @LittleTinkableeblog

There are many things we can do to help others around us whether that is simply messaging a friend/family/colleague and checking in on them or posting helplines so people know where they can go to for help they don’t feel comfortable talking to someone they know.

Suicide is something close to me. Having my biological father commit suicide was hard but not nearly as hard as having my little brother age 7- 8 (at the time) try to commit suicide due to bullies. Nor was it as hard as having to hear/know that my siblings and mother have either attempted or strongly thought about attempting suicide.

It’s a thought that can get stuck in your head and there have been a few moments in my life where I even thought about ending my own life, moments where I thought I could make the world around me go quiet….

What’s helped me get to my 22nd birthday (an age I honestly never dreamed of even reaching) is my need for helping people, especially my family. My family suffers greatly from mental illnesses and there are a lot of strong negative emotions that circle my family. It seems there is a never ending cycle of bad things occurring.

What has stop me from following through with my own dark thoughts is knowing that my family have the same thoughts if not stronger thoughts than I do, and if I’m not here to help them, to be that person they can talk to, vent to or turn their emotions out on, then who will?

Who will help them when they need it, who will listen to their thoughts when everything becomes too much?

Suicide is no laughing matter, and it certainly isn’t something that should be hidden under a rock. I believe more helps needs to be put into place for people who struggle just Living in such a confusing and critical world.

I believe schools should be forced to do more when it comes to education the young mind of mental health and mental health illnesses.

Schools really aren’t doing enough, or all they can to help protect our children and it really angers me that they are so….dismissive almost of mental health/illnesses.

Some records show that a person dies every 40 seconds by suicide and up to 25 times as many again make a suicide attempt. It is responsible for over 800,000 deaths, which equates to one suicide every 40 seconds. Every year, suicide is among the top 20 leading causes of death globally for people of all ages.

  • In 2018, there were 6,507 suicides registered in the UK, an age-standardised rate of 11.2 deaths per 100,000 population; the latest rate is significantly higher than that in 2017 and represents the first increase since 2013.
  • Three-quarters of registered deaths in 2018 were among men (4,903 deaths), which has been the case since the mid-1990s.
  • The UK male suicide rate of 17.2 deaths per 100,000 represents a significant increase from the rate in 2017; for females, the UK rate was 5.4 deaths per 100,000, consistent with the rates over the past 10 years.

Suicides in the UK

In 2018, a total of 6,507 suicides were registered in the UK, 686 more deaths than in 2017 when there were 5,821 deaths (11.8% increase). This equates to a statistically significant increase in the suicide rate, with 11.2 deaths per 100,000 population in 2018, compared with 10.1 deaths per 100,000 population in 2017.

Following several years of decline, the latest UK suicide rate has increased to the level seen when it previously peaked in 2013 (11.1 deaths per 100,000). Suicide rates tend to fluctuate on a year-to-year basis. It is therefore too early to say whether the latest increase represents a change in the recent trend.

The factors behind any increase in suicide rates are complex. However, as detailed in Section 3, Things you need to know about this release, a change in the standard of proof used by coroners may have affected the latest figures. The latest provisional figures for England (2019 registrations for Quarters 1 and 2), which are subject to change and not finalised, show similarly elevated levels of registrations in the first half of 2019.

You can find out more by clicking here.

I understand that suicide can be such a sensitive subject to talk about as it’s almost too terrible to even comprehend that a person could feel so bad that they would even think to take away their life.

But without people speaking up and breaking silence on this very shocking and sensitive subject then we only leave the world to stick to the terrible stigmas that has surrounded suicide and suicidal people.

As disturbing as the thought is there are people out there who use self-harm and suicide attempts to keep people with them or to stop people from leaving them. But this isn’t everyone! It’s a very small group that are like that, most of the time people are just looking for help because they’re just stuck. Stuck in the same cycles, feeling the same emotions over and over (and that’s if you haven’t gone numb by that point).

As previously state, I have had people incredibly close to me attempt suicide and talk openly about wanting to end their own lives. It’s such a horrible sinking feeling knowing that the people keeping you grounded are experiencing these feelings and I feel as though there isn’t anything I can do.

My boyfriend had once been roped into a “friendship” as the person would consistently use self-harm and attempts at suicide to bring him and other people in when the person felt as though people were leaving them out. I myself have been placed in similar situations. It’s not nice.

I now know that just letting them talk and being an open ear is more than enough sometimes. Sometimes we just need to feel as though we are being heard and validated.

I now know that walking away from people who use such a heartbreaking thing against you is the best thing to do and that I am no held responsible for their actions, only mine.

I want to thank you all for taking the time to read this post and I ask that you please share this one around. And if you EVER need an open ear, no judgement, just an listen ear, then please don’t hesitate to contact me.

Or you can contact one of these suicide prevention hotlines –

Uk Suicide Helpline

Samaritans – for everyone
Call 116 123
Email jo@samaritans.org

Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – for men
Call 0800 58 58 58 – 5pm to midnight every day
Visit the webchat page

Papyrus – for people under 35
Call 0800 068 41 41 – Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm, weekends 2pm to 10pm, bank holidays 2pm to 5pm
Text 07786 209697
Email pat@papyrus-uk.org

Childline – for children and young people under 19
Call 0800 1111 – the number won’t show up on your phone bill

USA Suicide Prevention Hotlines:

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/) is a 24-hour, toll-free, confidential suicide prevention hotline available to anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress.It provides Spanish-speaking counsellors, as well as options for deaf and hard of hearing individuals. It is only available in the United States 

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline can be reached at 1-800-273-8255.

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (ESP) can be reached at 1-888-628-9454

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (Deaf & Hard of Hearing Options) can be reached at 1-800-799-4889

You can also CLICK HERE to be direction to a list of International Suicide Hotlines.

Blogging Recognition Award

So once again I have been nominated for a blogging award this time by the amazing and ever so lovely Amy (whom I couldn’t thank enough!!) owner of Sassycatlady.com, a fantastic blog that I highly recommend you guys check out!

What is the ‘Blogger Recognition Award’ exactly?

For those who haven’t read my last one, or haven’t come across a post like this yet or have yet to be tagged, I’ll just state again what this award is all about.

So the ‘Blogger Recognition Award’ is an award given out by other remarkable and phenomenal bloggers who have recognised the hard work and creativity/ originality sewn into their blog and blog posts.

Of course like with all these fun and amazing awards there are rules put in place to assure that it is fair, fun and that everyone get the recognition deserved.

The Rules


  • Write a blog post to show the award
  • Acknowledge the blogger who has nominated you
  • Give a brief story to why you started your blog
  • Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers
  • Nominate at least 11 other fantastic bloggers who deserve the award!

Why I started my blogging journey


Before I had started this blog this year (4th February 2019) I couldn’t even message someone without hugely regretting it later, re-reading over my messages, wanting to take everything letter back, even if the message said as little as ‘hi’. I couldn’t bring myself to engage with other people on any level. I would spend my nights unable to sleep all because I thought I’d be able to message or comment on someone’s post.

But then I start this blog and I’ve found myself connecting with so many amazing, creative and just phenomenal group of people. I’ve found other ways to manage my anxiety, found more understanding in my mental health & illness problems, but more than that I have found my little drive for life again. I’m fighting a lot of invisible battles, a lot of it is unknown to me (but not for long) and I want my struggles, pain, fears, frustration, joy, small achievements, growth, good and bad moments to show through my blog.

I want people to see that through all the trail and error, the hopelessness and fighting oneself you CAN chase after your dreams and you CAN SUCCESS through a lot of hard work and not giving up or giving in.

I want to give back as much as I can. Something my mother always taught me while growing up and something that has always stuck was to help others who need/seek help. They way she would reason it to me was, “If you were in their shoes, what would you want you to do?”

I want to help spread more awareness on mental health and mental illness. The way I have decided I can best do that at the moment is by sharing mine and my experience/battle with it.

I want to help aspire others to chase after their dream (or as I like to say ‘write their dream.’). I want to help spread more positivity through the internet and help block out the negative/bad. I want to help other’s achieve their dream anyway I can, even if that’s just through continued support.

I created this blog to helped other authors get their books out there, to spread the word, to read more and connect with other people. I created this blog to help battle my own demons and show that the struggles (although incredibly difficult) is worth it. I created this blog to connect with other mental health fighters/ bloggers, to connect with other people battling their own demons and help support them, while learning new things about and new ways to cope with my own. I created this blog to help not only myself but other people, whoever they may be, whatever they may be going through.

I created this blog so people can know there is someone out there who does care about them, that there is someone out there who isn’t judging them, who DOES care about their health (both mental and physical) and well-being, who is here willing to just listen and to HEAR them. I created this blog to help achieve my dream and to spread my words, my voice, my thoughts, my…mind.

I’ve created this blog for so many reason and as the months grow on, so do my reasons for blogging.

The two pieces of advice I have for new bloggers are:

Do your research! You may not know it when going into it but blogging takes a LOT of work, time and effort. So many components go into making up your blog, I thought I had researched what I needed to know…boy was I wrong.

Here are 11 magnificent bloggers (never placed down in any particular order as they are all equally stupendous in their own ways) who have managed to keep my spirits high and blogging experience a great one but also produce some incredibly interesting, creative, original and simply astounding blog posts.

@EzziesBookshelf
@TheAnxiousTeac2
@PositivelyASD
@Beautyofmychao1
@LovePopcorn6
@Jessling1205
@Mahikswordworld
@AnnahMariahRuby
@cats_herding
@UnwantedLife_Me
@frantasmagoria1

I would just like to thank you all for taking the time to read my post and I hope everyone has a lovely week :D.

Blood Awakens by Jessaca Willis

And so it’s time for me to FINALLY release my review of this spectacular debut book ‘Blood Awakens’ Book 1 in the Awaken quartet by the equally wonderful Jessaca Willis.

True to the title of her book, Blood Awakens follow the stories of a few individuals fighting and trying to survive in a panic-stricken world where everyone runs on anxious thoughts and unexplained fear, where the strong stay strong and the weak get killed. A world where the different are more than feared, they are targeted, targeted by terror-stricken and frightened people.

Blurb


People called Sean a blood guide, though he never fully understood why. As far as he knew, he could hear heartbeats and heal people. It wasn’t until he walked in on his brother’s brutal murder that he learned of the darker nature of his power: blood speaks to him, and he to it. With a simple song, he can command it to do whatever he wants, and in that moment, he showed his brother’s murderers no mercy. Now Sean must fight to keep his inner demons in check and his path to redemption begins with the establishment of sanctuary for people like him, people with powers, the Awakened.

Graciela is one of many who did not Awaken, but she’s watched as her brother’s power as an Empath—the ability to sense other’s emotions—has brought him to the brink of death. Together, they set across Central America in search of a cure, or at the very least, safety. What they find is a sanctuary called Hope, the same one Sean governs.

But they soon discover that even from within the compounds of the sanctuary, no one is safe. Not when there are people in the world with unimaginable power and insatiable bloodlust.

(Readers Note)
This book is “New adult” fantasy, with moderate violence, and one or two mild curse words, but otherwise appropriate for mature teenagers and older. There is no sex or drugs in this book.

Book Notes/Details


If you are looking for a “New adult” dark fantasy read with mystery, love, loss, lies, heartache, high emotions with a touch of magic and post-apocalyptic drama then this is one book you are going to want to pick up and never put down!

E-book details 
File size - 3210KB
Print length - 328 pages
Publisher - Amazon
Publication date - 26th June 2019
Paper Back Details 
Series - The Awakened (book 1 in the Awakened Quartet)
Paperback - 326
Publisher - Jessaca Willis 27th June 2019
Language - English

Blood Awakens is the first debut novel by the incredible Jessaca Willis, the first instalment of the ‘Awaken Quartet’ series.

About the Author

Jessaca is a fantasy writer, with an inclination towards the paranormal, dystopian, dark, and horror sub genres.

Growing up in the 90’s and early 2000’s, Jessaca spent her free time heavily immersed in books and shows such as Harry Potter, True Blood, The Sword of Truth/Legend of the Seeker, and Merlin, so much so that at one point she truly believed fantasy worlds were real (maybe she still does). Her passion for the unimaginable and the magnificent grew, leading Jessaca to a career in fantasy writing, with an inclination toward the dark, horror, paranormal, and dystopian/apocalyptic sub-genres.​

Before she realized being an author was more than her own fantasy though, she was a wandering college student who believed in making the world a better place. She studied social work for her undergraduate and graduate degrees, and participated in a number of study abroad programs that led her to countries such as Guatemala, Italy, and Bolivia. So that her studies don’t become entirely useless, Jessaca draws heavily from her experiences abroad and from her education in human development, social institutions (race, gender, class, sexuality, etc.), mental health, and family roles, to incorporate into her novels and short stories.​

Jessaca is a self-proclaimed nerd who loves cosplay, video games, and comics. She grew up and still lives in Portland, Oregon, where she resides with her partner and their fur- and human-babies.

You can check out here website here: https://www.jessacawillis.com/

My thoughts


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Blood Awaken by Jessaca Willis

For me the first chapter of a book is everything, especially as lately I find myself more easily distracted now than I was back in my younger days of reading.

And I have to say that during the first chapter of Jessaca’s debut novel I found myself fully immersed into Sean’s life, hook, line and sinker.

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Blood Awaken By Jessaca Willis

During the first chapter of Blood Awakens we are sucked into the mind and thoughts that is Sean as he makes his way home from being fired under injustice circumstances. He receives a frantic and confusing phone call unaware that that would be the start of bigger changes for him and his brother, life would never be the same for, Sean again. Through his thoughts we are able to imagine the world that he is living in, a world that feel much like the dark ages but with technology, a world where people act irrationally and impulsive. Full of fear and hate for the unknown, we really get to see the injustice world that the “Awakens” have no choice but to endure.

From the start this book had my emotion on the fray! The way that Jessaca was able to use incredible and engaging style of writing that helped draw her readers into her book and into the life of the characters she had built and gave life to.

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Blood Awaken by Jessaca Willis

Blood Awakens gives you a very realistic and post-apocalyptic view on what the world around us would be like if people had suddenly started to “awaken” without prompt.

Of course this book isn’t all about Sean and his tragedies in life but also the trials and struggles of other Awakened and non-Awaken (people who haven’t woken into their power) people such as Graciela who is fiercely loyal to the Awakened, even though she is one of the “non-awakened”, though I’m sure that her brother being one of them has had a help in swaying her beliefs in what is right, what is wrong, who is dangerous and who is not.

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Blood Awaken by Jessaca Willis

But having to watch her beloved brother live and suffer with his “gift” of being one of the Awakened has taken its own toll on poor Graciela. All she wants is a safe place for her and her brother to live out her days but with the world so caught up in their own terror, a safe place is few and far.

Blood Awakens takes you along on a suspense filled journey, with strong elements of family, loyalty, survival, drama and action, love and loss, magic and wonder that left me wanting more and kept me turning page after page! (or more accurately for me it kept me swiping on my kindle to read more!)

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Blood Awaken by Jessaca Willis

This wasn’t like anything I have read before and I loved it for that reason!

All the characters in this novel are extremely well written and engaging. Giving you a little glimpse each time into their lives, their thoughts and feelings, I truly felt as though I was living in a post-apocalyptic world where anyone could turn on you in a second if you were “Awakened”, where I truly experience the irrational fear to the unknown.

Jessaca’s brilliant word building skills are able to transport you into her book and into the lives of her characters.

For me Blood Awakens gets a 5/5 star rating.

If you would like to find out more about Jessaca’s books or Jessaca herself then feel free to click on one of the links below!

Website

Twitter

Facebook

Goodreads

Purchase Links:

Amazon UK

Amazon US

The tales of Sox – A life without you

On the 10th June 2013 we were gifted with a tiny grey kitten from my sister’s best friend’s mum, who at the time cat had just had a big litter of kittens, but know home for them.

My sister spent a lot of her time over her friends house, especially once her friend’s cat had had the kitten. Who luckily only lived a few houses away, my sister got on really well with this little girl and her mother was just as lovely to talk to.

My little sister has autism and Asperger’s, she’s on a high scale of both spectrum. At the time she had a speech impediment and some difficulty in reading and writing, but the school that my mum took her to at the time done wonders to help her, taught her sign language to help her communicate with us (Her favourite sign to sign was cookie. She always wanted a cookie, that eventually we were nicknaming her ‘the cookie monster’!), spent hours with to help her read and write. But she was still incredibly shy and distant, she was still locking herself away from people, away from us at times.

But ever since she had spent time at her best friends house we had noticed a subtle change in the way she carried herself, she was gaining more confidence. At the time we put it down to spending a lot of time with her friend… then we realised the real magic that was at work. Her friend had a few pets, specifically she had a female cat that at the time was pregnant. When they found out she was pregnant Cait (my little sister) went into “vet mode” which is something we say when all her focus is driven to helping an animal. She woke up, had breakfast and went to her friend house and only came back when my mum went to retrieve her.

I had overheard my sister talking about really wanting one of the kittens and talking to my other siblings, making them excited and wanting a kitten.

It was then that I started thinking…maybe it was time we got a new pet. My younger siblings had never had a pet yet and the last one I remember us having was when I was 6-7 taking in another stray. It was the only times I remember having pets, we’d never buy one, we’d eventually see a poor dog looking rough, scared, hungry and needing a home. My mum has a heart of gold, if we brought home a fish and told her we needed to look after it because no one else was, she’d let us keep it and help us look after it.

But there came a time where we had to stop bring home strays and eventually we got used to a house full of people and no animals. So I knew if we wanted to have another pet in the house then it would require A LOT of conviction… luckily I have always found that discussion and convention have been my strong suit when it comes to communication. Want a conversation? You might need to look else where, Need someone to convince someone that something is a good idea?… then you’ve found your girl!

I knew that simply talking and to guilt my mum into it just wasn’t an option, at least not on its own (I’m not proud of it but we do what we must when young and wanting something).

So with that in mind I did a little research and came a cross other parents who had bought a cat for this child with autism and noticed a big difference in their personalty and confidence, specifically I was looking into the benefits of having a cat around the house.

I came across a few article and pages that suggested that a cat was a great companion for those who have autism.

“Results of a study recently published in Frontiers in Veterinary Science demonstrated that cats are affectionate with children with autism spectrum disorder (ASD), benefitting the children and their families.”

How Cats Can Help Children With Autism Spectrum Disorder

Once I was sure I had enough information to give to my mum about the benefit of having a cat, all I had to do was, share my information with her. And so for two days, every night, I would sit down and explain why I thought it was time we had a pet, but instead of a dog, it’d be a cat. My was NEVER a cat person. She hated cats because of a bad experience with one when she was younger. but the moment she laid eyes on the kittens, I saw her heart melt at the sight and she too fell in love with tiny furry creatures.

I fell in love with a tiny little black and white kitten whom I had named Moxie, while my sister had had her eyes set on a cheeky looking grey kitten from the very moment she saw all the kittens. She already had a name picked out for him! Sox.

Because the white on his paws make it look like he is wearing little white socks!

Caitlin – when explaining why she choose Sox for his name.

When they were able to be separated from their mother, we took home our new kittens.

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Pictures before the year 6 school prom

It was from that moment on that Sox and Cait became inseparable. Two peas in a pod. Seeing them together was something truly special, you could see the love they had for each other, the care that was there.

Sox was a special cat, he seem far more intelligent than most people give any animal credit for. I believe he knew why Cait had picked him, because I think he picked her too. He somehow knew that she needed help, and knew that he was the only one at the time that could provide that for her.

They acted like best friends, brother and sister, not like pet and owner. There were days they would fight, days he would turn his back on her out of anger (usually after dressing him up in a dress ) but most days were spent with them napping together. Of him by her side as she taught herself to draw, cuddling into her when she was sad or confused.

He seemed to know what she needed and when she needed it, it was like they were fully in tuned with one another.

On 3rd June 2017 the family was so happy and excited that Sox was back home, he had gone missing for a few days and we were waiting on his return. Something felt wrong while he was gone, my sister felt like there was something wrong, she wouldn’t eat or sleep because of it. So when he showed up we were so happy!

Until we saw that he was hurt, limping, and not at all himself….

We quickly realised that he had been hit, knocked down or at least seriously harmed in some way, as he made his way up stairs to seek shelter in the bottom of my cupboard (I had turned the bottom of it into a little cat bed/hiding area so they always had somewhere to hid if they truly felt they needed to – usually only happened whenever a new person came to the house or one was sick). While making his way there he was leaving a trail of blood and my sister crying/following behind him.

We got him to the vet as soon as we could in the hopes they’d be able to do something. The next day we got a call saying they weren’t able to do the surgery he needed because of a swelling.

5th June 2017 my mum had received another phone call. There wasn’t anything they could do for him, they couldn’t be sure how long ago he had received his injury but it had already started rotting and the rotting had made its way too far into his body.

The only humane thing to do was to let him go.

My mum called us into the kitchen to deliver the horrible and heartbreaking new. It broke us but what broke me more was the ear piercing scream that came out of Cait when she was told, the way she collapsed on the floor and begged for her best friend back.

It still breaks me to this day and I find myself in tears writing this. I had originally planned on writing this and having it out for the 5th June but I couldn’t bring myself to do so, then I was going to do it yesterday but found myself having the same problem. But today I’ve decided to power through the emotions because his story needs to be told, our pets stories need to be told which is reason behind my, ‘Let talk pets series’ on my blog.

I want to share the story of other people’s pets, I want to be their voice, the voice they don’t have. I want their owners to tell their stories so I can share them with the world and so please if you do or did have a pet, I would be more than happy to feature their story on my blog. Just email me at: Littletinkable@gmail.com

Sox was my sister’s best friend. He helped her more than we ever could and when we was taken from us…when we had to let him go, we lost a little piece of ourselves with him. Life isn’t the same without him. And it never will be the same again.

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Cair, my mum and little sox

He made an impact in our lives but more of all he made a massive impact in my sister’s life and for that I know she will always love and treasure his memories.

After reading my post I want you all to take a moment to remember the things your pets have done for you, things they have helped you through. Then I want you take a minute to truly appreciate those little creatures because they are the only tiny little blessing in life that I believe in.

This is the universe way of giving us a helping hand and to dismiss it as nothing, to keep taking them for granted is a truly foolish mistake on our part. They deserve our love and care more than anyone, why should they be the only ones giving the unconditional love? We need to give as much as we take and that includes our pets.

Can teachers be bullies?

I’m having a tough time with my child’s teacher. It went from her telling us that she prefers the girls over the boys (I have a boy) at our conference in December, to her questioning me about why I didn’t bring him to the holiday concert after school because she knows we went to the movies that night. I told her we had already bought the tickets and that he choose to go to the movies that night because he didn’t want to go to the holiday concert. Then I walked away and got angry… Is she questioning my parenting? And if so, then maybe it’s time I start questioning her teaching. What I do with my children after school hours is none of her damn business. Her job is to teach my child in a safe environment and currently he is having anxiety just going to school because he feels like he is constantly being targeted by her and getting in trouble. Why is that?

One day she took his chap stick away because he got up to go get it without asking.

He raised his hand and she wouldn’t call on him. Which has happened before.

He needs his chap stick right now, he has a very dry irritation under his lip (which is clearly visible) and he needs the chap stick to sooth and protect it.

She should not have taken it away.

Yesterday she wouldn’t let him go to the nurse when he asked because he had a headache. They were going to recess and it’s weirdly warm and springy that day so,

he was trying to tell her that the humidity would make his headache worse but she yelled at him to get his jacket and go outside.

So, he cried and she said that she was finished talking to him and walked away. When I picked him up he was pale.

When we got home, he skipped dinner and went to bed and slept for 12 hours straight. He clearly did not feel well.

His teacher has also made comments about his hair being to long, and his winter jacket being to big. If she has an issue with the appearance of my child, she needs to tell me so I can tell her where to shove it, not say it to my child in front of the rest of the class.

We emailed the Principal and the Vice principle and we had a meeting. The principal was clearly upset with the way the teacher was with my son.

Even though my husband had already spoke to the vice principal about what was going on, the principal seemed to have no idea. She asked for 2 weeks to try to mediate the situation and see if she could make my son feel better about going to class.

The vice principal took it upon himself to call my son and the teacher out of class and gave the teacher a signal to do when she needed his attention, she would call him and tap her shoulder. One time is a warning, two times he’s in trouble and the third time he gets sent to the principal’s office. This didn’t sit well with my husband and I and we immediately sent off an email informing them that our son doesn’t have a “signal” to get the teachers attention and she routinely ignores him when he raises his hand,

and what they are creating was a form of entrapment,

which we are not cool with.

The principal looked into it and said that our son wasn’t getting in trouble, he was getting a chance to calm down. That still makes no sense. He’s upset because he needs to go to the bathroom and he’s raised his had for 20 minutes and the teacher isn’t calling on him. It’s not till he has to call out her name and then she will answer him.

The thing is, our kid is doing really well socially this year, in his class. Last year we had a student who was a bully picking on him when no one was looking. Even in that situation, they failed to do anything other then promise that this year he wouldn’t be in the same class as that child. Now, the kids are fine but the teacher is terrible.

Just last week my son had to cry to get sent to the nurse’s office again and it turned out that he actually had an ear infection.

I will be bringing this up at out parent teacher year end meeting this Thursday, which the principal will be in on.

There was also an issue with a little girl in school who told my son that the world would be better off without him and he agreed with her. She ended up telling the social worker and the social worker spoke to him. She called me and said that she did a risk assessment and he doesn’t have any plans or anything, he just said it.

I expected to have him tell me he didn’t mean it when I picked him up from school that day but he actually said that he was feeling so sad that day with everything going on with his teacher, and then the girl was being mean to him too, so he actually did feel like the world would be better off without him.

We had a huge heart to heart that night and I asked him if he wanted to find someone to talk to, he said yes.

We’re currently waiting for a therapist, we’ve already done all the intake stuff we’re just waiting on his first appointment. I think it will help him to have someone else to speak to and they might have better ways of dealing with these situations that they can teach him and my husband and I.

As of right now, my son seems to be better about going to school. There are 2.5 months left and I think he’ll be fine staying in this witch’s class. Every thing I hear now though goes straight to the principal. I need the paper trail because I assume, they are trying to create their own as well.

Can teachers be bullies? And then what do you do?

I will be updating this story on my blog.

My name is Jessica. My husband and I have a 9-year-old son and a 7-year-old daughter. We are currently figuring out this whole parenting thing. I am currently working on my dream of being an author since the kids are getting older and I now have a little bit more free time. If you would like to support me, that would be awesome! I have a few books published on Amazon.

Wow. What can I say to that? Other than I personally do believe teachers can be bullies, I have come across a few teachers that have bullies through my years of moving schools (completely different reasons- my mum moved house a lot when I was younger). However the fact that they exists doesn’t excuse the fact that they should, teachers should be in more control of themselves when around children and if they can’t be then they shouldn’t be there. The fact that this teacher has brought a child into feeling that way is disgraceful and yet unfortunately none surprising as, as I said I have come across a few…bad teachers and so have my siblings.

I feel teachers need to be looked into more, schools need to change their ways. For they have gone from caring about their students, saftey, well being and education. Now it’s all numbers and figures. The system is broken and someone needs to step in and fix it. Other we are left with questions likes, ‘can teachers be bullies?’ -LittleTinkablee

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