January 2021 – A New Journey

January 2021 – A New Journey

2020 has been an insane year for all of us. It has thrown some real challenges and devastation upon us while testing us all to our limits. A lot of people’s mental health have been affected more so than ever, people have lost their jobs, their homes, their sense of security and safety.

The whole world went into a worldwide scare as we faced a worldwide pandemic due to an out break of coronavirus, and with some of leaders failing to guide us through such a stressful and unusual event it has made getting through this pandemic a lot harder and a lot more frightening as some countries have been left feeling as though they are fending for themselves due to the lack of guidance and control over the situation. Some of us have lost family members, friends and other loved ones from the hit of COVID-19

We have all been tested to our limits in our owns ways and have had to face many challenges that I’m sure a lot of us could have done without. Not only has this pandemic affected us all on a personal level but it has also affected us all on a business level. With countries going into lockdown in the hopes of containing and stopping the spread of the virus a lot of people had to leave their jobs, a lot of people got fired from their jobs as a lot of businesses failed to meet their money target for this year. Businesses were forced to close their doors temporarily in the hopes of containing the virus, thinking…well more like hoping, that they would only need to do that for a couple of weeks. However for some unfortunate and struggling businesses, they have been forced to close their doors forever putting them and their employees out of work.

The NHS and Key-Workers have been pushed more than ever also. With NHS workers/nurses/doctors risking their lives to help save our loved ones lives there have been a lot of show of support of them (but yet still not enough) as we thank them for working tirelessly to keep our loved ones alive and healthy.

People who never even considered dying their hair have gone as far as to self-bleach and dye their own with the trending hashtag (At the time) #Lockdownhair. I myself have been hit with a new hairstyle, a much shorter one I never thought I’d be brave enough to try out, despite my reservations and fears about short hair I have been finding a new hidden confidence in myself that never would have.

businesses, workers and just about everyone around the world started relying on the internet, on social media, group chats, and home deliveries to get them through this confusing COVID-19 pandemic.

As we had to learn to distance ourselves physically from those we love, we reached out to the internet and social media in the hopes of trying to replace that lost and lonely feeling. Divorces have gone up, relationships (friendships, platonic, Family relationships, romantic) have been tried and tested, and a lot of people unfortunately got to experience a little of what a lot of us who have suffered from mental health most of our lives are coping. Mental Health has become more talked about more now than ever, with thousands having their sense of safety and socialism taken from them and their world turned around.

To put it simply, 2020 has been one hell of a year, a year that has changed the world.

Like everyone else I and my family (close and distant) have not been without our own struggles, but as always they have shown a strength that I can only hope to/have when facing my own challenges.

2020 became such a unsuspected, challenging, frightening and unknown year. And despite that I am honestly looking forward to starting 2021 journey. The lows and the highs. After this year, if I have taken anything from it, it’s not to underestimate yourself and that there isn’t a thing you can’t get through as long as you have the right people trying to support and help you. It’s also not to take health for granted and I’m more determined than I was back when I started my yoga journey in 2019 while starting my recovery journey with my eating disorder to keep my focus on my health.

With that being said, This year brought me into a whole new journey of healing, one I feel will bring its own adventures as it follows me into the New Year of 2021.

I have no clue what this year holds for me or for you! But I have a feeling this year is going to be the year of self-discovery for everyone.

despite the load of shit-storms we’ve had thrown our way this year, that isn’t to say that 2020 didn’t come with its good moments.

Here in Liverpool, we never got a our snowy christmas day. However, we were graced in the wee little hours of the morning with a small blanket of snow. It wasn’t enough to get some “Winter Wonderland” though I did try (they didn’t turn out any good) I did end up accidently capturing a little blurry snowflake on my camera!

The sky has been incredible this year! And I’ve found myself looking to the sky more this year than my entire life. Just check out some of the incredible “shows” our beautiful sky has put on for us this year: –

  • Series of supermoons.
  • Moon passes in front of Mars.
  • Meteor shower drought comes to an end.
  • Lunar eclipse on the Fourth of July.
  • Jupiter, Saturn to take the spotlight in the summer sky.
  • Perseid meteor shower.
  • Blue moon to glow in Halloween sky.
  • Moonless sky in store for peak of the Geminids
  • Total solar eclipse to darken sky over South America
  • Super conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn

I was not only lucky enough to witness most of these, I was lucky enough to capture all the supermoons on my camera!

I, myself, have overcome personal challenges, faced some frightening situations and through it all I have found a deeper strength in myself. I have found that I can still somehow function through a LOT of stress and a LOT of worrying.

I’ve been able to keep my anxiety down, my eating and weight is still all over the place but I’m happy to say that I’ve at least managed not to lose anymore. I’ve still managed my solo or couple walks in the wooded areas away from other people and I’ve spends a lot of this year starting a few new online courses and taking pictures, making whatever memories I could.

I strayed away from my blog despite my efforts, I found myself with little interest in writing this year, so much so that I still have a few new empty notebooks laying around! Usually they are half way filled with words by the end of a year however I don’t feel any loss towards my lack of enthusiasm for writing this year. I’ve seen it as a pausing point, a point in my life where I needed to take a bigger step away from social media and away from my blog and focus on my present life and the world moving around me not around the internet.

2020 has brought with it an inner peace within myself that has changed so much the way I think and look at situations and for that, pushing aside the bad of the year, I am grateful for the challenges and I can’t say that I took nothing away from 2020 because I’ve taken more from that year than I have any other.

I’m more focused on myself, on my emotions, my passions, my body, my hunger, my abilities and health thanks to 2020, my eyes are open to more positive things and I’m able to recognise a bad situation and detach myself from it rather than invest my emotions into it, just as I am now able to recognise a positive moment and keep it at the forefront of my mind ready to get through another difficult situation.

I understand just how scary, devastating and unusual this year has been. I’m sure its made it difficult for a lot of people to push past all the bad, to focus on the little bits of good that has come from this year.

But I want you all to try, try to think of one or two good things that happened this year and hold on to them, let those good moments be your guide through the bad moments. And remember that our mental state and the well beings of ourselves and loved ones are what truly matters. Count your small blessings, enjoy and soak yourself in the little moments and don’t take for granted the things others do for us to keep us going, don’t take for granted those in your life and more than anything never let the dark moments become every moment. There is light in every dark situation, no matter how tiny it maybe.

I don’t know what struggles you face in your life but I believe in you! If we can make it through a year like 2020, we can make it through anything.

I hope you all had a magical christmas and a lovely new year.

And with that I’ll wish you all lovely 2021. Bye, bye 2020. I’m ready to start and get through 2021 adventures!

The end of a decade and the start of a new. Goodbye 2019 and hello 2020

It’s so insane to think that we can now close the book on one decade and say goodbye to yet another year so we can start anew for the following decade ahead of us and the years that follow. I never thought I’d make it this far and honestly I’m in shock and proud of myself that I’ve reached this far. I’m proud of my family and everything they have survived this decade and in awe of their ability to pick themselves back up and keep going.

blog, blogger, bloggers, blog post, new blog post, mental health, new decade, decade, year , new year. 2020, new year 2020, the start of 2020, the end of 2019. photography, canon , canon camera
Goodbye 2019

2019 for me has been one of my most peaceful years (mentally…) that I’ve had in far too long a time. Don’t get me wrong it’s still be crazy and I’ve still had a lot of really bad moments but for the first time in my life I was able to focus on the good moments too, enough that the bad hasn’t overridden the good.

If I were to comment on this decade, I would tell you it’s been one of the most insane, crazy, happy, intense, heart-breaking, nerve-wrecking and life changing decade I hope to ever experience.


This year on February 4th 2019 I start this blog! After a year of second guessing and going back on myself I finally went through with what I wanted to do and set out to “write my dreams” instead of letting my mental illnesses win and overrule my life. And it all started with this blog.

Since blogging I’ve been opened to so many amazing opportunities that had been closed off to me before. I’ve gotten to speak to some incredible authors and have come across some amazing book series (one of which helped bring me out of my year long reading slump: Heavenward by Olga Gibbs) and my review you can read here on my blog!

I can’t wait to see what opportunities are brought to me in 2020!

2019 blogging has also helped me with my own mental state, it’s helped me to understand a some of my mental illnesses and open my eyes to things I never even thought about when thinking about my mental illness. It’s also helped me to learn and understand about other’s and all the other different types of mental illnesses there are out there.

It’s been a great way to track and log my progress and although I’ve not done as much of that as I had planned last year, this year, I’m hoping to change that and open up more through my blog.

I’ve learnt new things about myself this year that I don’t think I would have ever realised or noticed before without starting this blog, It’s helped in my confidence and its made me even more motivated to write my novel, to go out there and become a psychologist and to have my blog running steadily through that time. I’m more motivated now than ever to go after what I want no matter what’s standing in my way, I know my worth and value and nothing and nobody is going to stop me for achieving the future I want for myself.

I even went on a few adventures with my love and little Toby (one of which I think I’ve written about on my blog) and even had Bella and Brad join a few (Bella is one of Toby’s best friends!). On one of my adventures with Dan we came across a really beautiful butterfly that even kept still long enough for me to snap a few picture of it! It was such a relaxing and wonderful day of walking about in nature and away from people.


2019 wasn’t just a great year for the start of my blogging life, it also became a great year for my health. I became a year free of smoking, I had gotten into my yoga practice a lot more, started a few new workouts and I had even managed to start eating more and gained weight for the first time in a years. Overall this year I have felt the healthiest I have in far too long.

Mental Health Matters

My mental health has also improved a little in 2019, I noticed I’ve had less break-down, less blow outs, I’ve managed to find a new coping method that helps me to manage my emotions a little better. They still get the better of me and I’ve not gotten complete control over them, but now I FINALLY have a way to gain at least a little control which is a big step for me.

2019 brought me inner peace.

2019 I learnt to let go of a lot of my negative emotions and thinking. I finally feel a peaceful in myself that I’ve been trying desperately to obtain for what seems like my whole life, I’m not feeling that constant war within myself that I’m usually battling with on a daily basis, I haven’t managed to rid myself of it completely but the feeling is there less now. Because of this a lot of my personal relationships have gotten better and I wouldn’t change that fact for the world.

unfortunately as usual with me I’ve ‘fallen off the wagon’ as the saying has goes and I’ve gotten myself stuck into a few old bad habits again, I’ve stopped eating and lost the weight I gained and due to my not eating I’ve decided to stop all exercising – not wanting to risk anymore weight loss than I’m already experiencing.

A lot happened in 2019:

  • Loki was born had his first Halloween and Christmas with us.
  • My sister and mum had big operations and are still recovering incredibly well from them.
  • I attempted Camp NaNoWriMo2019
  • My Kitt-Katt became a little senor cat this year
  • My little sister turn 16!
  • My little brother turned 13!
  • I did yoga with my little sister
  • I took my sisters to a Pusheen event in early celebration of my little sister’s 16th birthday
  • I was finally able to dye my last little sister’s hair for the first time. (It’s like a right of passage in my house)
  • I found out that the vets didn’t neuter one of my cats properly and caught him spraying out in the garden (luckily he’s too much of a good boy to do it in the house)
  • I also found out that my little Bear – who is two now – is Oreo’s son
  • I still haven’t gotten over how much Gizmo looks like her dad (my kitt-katt)
  • I met Cloud (My friends new kitten)
  • Spirit went to a new home and became best friends with his new brother Cloud
  • Spirit passed away a few months before Christmas
  • I’ve connected with myself
  • I’ve dyed my hair purple
  • Was blonde for a day
  • Then dyed my hair orange
  • Worked on myself and actually made progress!
  • I’ve baked a little in 2019
  • Spent many late nights working on blog post
  • Spent many more late nights working on my novel
  • My mums cat went missing for a week so I spent that week climbing over her garden wall into the wilderness behind calling her, leaving food, tuna, treats, and her cat carry (she’s obsessed with it for some reason) until she finally made her way back home to my mum.
  • I’ve learnt a lot about myself in 2019
  • Experienced some extremely frosty mornings but no snow…
  • And entered the 7th new year with my Dan

Now that we are in 2020 it’s time to give up those bad habits again and focus on my health. I plan on getting back into my yoga practice as well as my work outs and hopefully eating a bit more food on a regular basis.

I also have plans to get out a bit more and to complete another online course for my psychology. My mum got me a new camera for Christmas so I’ll probably be taking a LOT of pictures while testing it out and getting a feel for it (I can’t wait! I’ve already used it a few times for some cat pictures and moon pictures – I a little moon mad :P).

I plan on taking this year a little slower in the hopes that it will help me work through my messy mind and bring to life all the ideas that are cramped inside. I have a lot of hope for this decade, I lot things I’m hoping to see come to pass.

I also have a few book reviews that I was meant to get through in 2019 but either unfortunately forgot about them (it’s what happens if I’m sent them online rather than in physical form – unfortunately its out of sight out of mind with me as my memory is awful – or simply just haven’t been able to get round to them yet but I’m not taking on any more book review until I’ve gotten through and posted the ones that I was hoping to have out before the start of 2020.

Before I leave this post and wish you all a great year and a great start to a new decade I just want to thank everyone who has helped me, supported me and stuck by me through these months. I’ve almost made it to a full year of blogging! And it wouldn’t have happened with out your support and encouragement and there are just a few blogs I want to leave everyone with the option of checking out.

These bloggers are some phenomenal, creative and inspiring people that has helped me through my own journey of blogging, mental wellness and recovery and I know that a lot of my viewers would either love or benefit hugely from checking these bloggers blogs out. –

That Autistic Fit Chick

The Mini Smallholder

Nyxie’s Nook

Readers Enjoy Authors’ Dreams

Wellbean blog

Fraser’s Fun house

BestieTalks

Pages Places & Plates

ColourlsSimplyArt

TimeToTalk

Inching Forwards

Leooooo – The Anxious Teacher

Unwanted Life

TRJ Blog – The Ray journey

Jack Deyes

And with that list of amazing blogger, I hope you all have a happy, safe and peaceful year and thank you all again for sticking with me through all my inconsistency.